Full Text of the Sandusky “Love Letters”BELLEFONTE- Centre County court officials allowed reporters to page through the evidence from the Jerry Sandusky trial after jurors began deliberations on Tuesday.
Among the many pieces of evidence prosecutors had in the case are so-called “creepy love letters” that alleged Victim 4 testified Sandusky sent to him. What follows is a transcript of each letter. The first is a third person story Victim 4 said Sandusky sent to him. The letters were written in Sandusky’s handwriting. Some words are tough to make out, you will find lines in place of those words. The alleged victim’s name has been removed for his protection.
“The B-J Story”(sent to Victim 4)
Jer was scared to death, studied in the playground
Times were not always perfect. There were ups and down. There were arguments, fights, they cared! No matter what, there was a connection that would help them last through this difficult time. There was always a sensitive, caring feeling deep inside. Jer had learned through many experiences that life isn’t perfect, even with someone he confided to be his “best friend”
Life is far from perfect at this stage. Something or things have come into [Victim 4]’s life that appears to have taken him over. Its powerful, a cloud of smoke that has engulfed him, for Jer it has been a dark cloud. Both seemed to fight it, coming over trying to do _____ but couldn’t pull it off. He seems to bring the both more and more. I _____ the cloud _____ and taken over. It has smothered something and love, taken away his caring and enthusiasm. His enthusiasm has been replaced by sleep, his caring replaced by … “Tell me another story Jer” has been replaced by “I don’t care” this cloud has destroyed … this is fear that it has reached his inside, really his feelings.
Jer believes that there will always be something special inside [Victim 4]. He hopes that it will last, return, if it has left. The players miss him. They say, “Come back, [Victim 4]!” “Stay with us, [Victim 4]!” Jer would love to have the good times back. The players shout “Be with us til the end!”
Jer would love to hear, “Tell me another story, Jer.” Jer may not be worthy, but he needs a “best friend” it doesn’t look real good.
Jer understands life and its changes. He’s proud, too proud to beg for a finish, extended family member. The story will ends the way that [Victim 4] wants it. Jer wants to be there to the end, but that’s [Victim 4]’s call. If [Victim 4] ever needs him, he’ll come.
Regardless, they have had an experience that others wont. Jer will not forget and always care.
Letter 1
[Victim 4],
Once again, I have decided to write some of my thoughts. I write because you mean so much to us. I write because I am concerned about all of us. I write because I am concerned about all of us. I write because I have seen the hurt on Tim’s face when you don’t show for him, even though you have given your word. I write because of the churning in my own stomach when you don’t care. I write because I still hope that there will be meaning to the time we have known each other.
Tim and I have seen this before, had similar experiences, and to be honest not very happy conclusions. You like to express yourself in a straightforward manner. This will be a very direct message from us.
When seen to be a conveniences. When it is inconvenient or a better deal comes along you leave a trial of broken promises. Communicate seem to be meaningless.
You are able to connect from person to person to person, object to object. You seek happiness through control, domination, and what satisfies the moment. You have to hit the home run, swing for the fence. You don’t understand or care not to worry about loyalty, commitment or caring. The ____so to get what you want regardless of others.
On the surface this may appear to work for you. People enjoy your youthfulness. Different people show up to give you temporary fulfillment.
We could be wrong but doesn’t believe this is how it works..
You will get older. People will expect more. Your youthfulness will disappear. If you cannot care, you will not be able to live up to the expectations. Your so-=called “best friends” will vanish. Happiness will escape your life.
You might want to stop and think about time happiness. It seems to come more often when your don’t try so hard, look to just get a simple reach out to others, lose yourself, become satisfied with … simple people who care.
It’s your life! You can continue as you have, keep looking for happiness’s or you can find it. We’d love to be a part of your life, but that’s your choice.
We’ve been here, made it through some challenges. Went to always be there for you!
With some help and a lot of caring we are:
Jer and Tim [There was no discussion in the trial of who Tim is]
Letter 2
[Victim 4],
I hope that writing some of my thoughts will not … you as much as I do personally.
We have known each other for almost two years; gone through many highs and lows. There was tremendous encouragement as we went through last summer and into the fall. You seemed like you had ____ into everything and were doing well. Those who had poured out their guts for you, stood by you, were there when you needed them, swelled with pride in your accomplishments.
Somehow this all slipped away. Agreements with people who really care about you didn’t mean anything. You started missing school, your attitude, grades, and self-esteem dropped.
We tried many ways to get you to do your work but failed. You kept driving us away. It became clear that there were only two ways to make a difference in your life, and they weren’t working. Somebody had to care enough to take control and help you succeed. Tim and I cared enough but were not in that kind of position. The only other hope was that you would attach to us, care enough, and want to please yourself and others.
Inch by inch you continued to drive those that live and would die for you out. Instead, you bounce from one person to another, always measuring what others are willing to do for you.
Where are we? Discouraged, but were still here, hope to remain.
When it comes to school, I conclude that there is a nothing that I can do or say that will make a difference. However, there is always hope. Maybe you wont quit. Maybe you will decide down the road to make an effort. Maybe time will be something that will ___ help in the future. I will be there as long as you want me. I’ll stand by you so a person who has been a large part of my life. I’ll always care!
I see you getting better in soccer, playing hockey, etc. Hopefully, you will not throw this opportunity away. There is so much that I enjoy about you. You have special qualities. Hang on to the positive experiences whether you want us there or not. When it is all said and done remember us as very … people who cared, tried, and always wanted to be a true friend (there in the clutch)
You will always be meaningful to me!
Keep climbing! Keep on Keepin’ On!
Jer
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